Hey guys!  Well, things are going okay.  I've been going up and down every week, but mostly maintaining.  My stated goal, right now, is 140, but I'm thinking that I'll try to push to 135.  I can do it, dangit!  On June 1, I'm starting a boot camp class that runs for a month, three days a week.  I'm HOPING that will be what I need to push through this.  I haven't been really paying much attention to calories, so that's the main reason I haven't lost.  As long as I'm maintaining, I'm good!

Check out my new progress pics!  I'm posting them within the next five minutes.  There's a new before picture that I'm shocked at every time I see it.  I never knew I looked like that, and I have to look closely to make sure it's me.  Wow.

Good job on the loss, Laurie!

Okay, yeah, FINALLY an update!!!  I know, it's been forever... well, we missed three weigh-ins.  Technically, we didn't miss them.  I've just been lazy about posting them.  If you look at our graph, it's been a spotty few weeks for all of us.  I gained 4 pounds one week, and I've almost lost all of it now.  Sorry I haven't been around... just been dealing with personal stuff AGAIN.  Geez, does it ever end?  I lived 10 years drama-free, no problems (except when I lost my Mom), and now, I'm just full of angst day-in day-out. 

It's time to recommit, refocus, and start thinking about ME again.  Love you ladies!

 

Note from Tammy:  Yahoo!  I am loving this!!!  2.2 last week and 2.6 this week.  I cannot complain.  My goal is 140, and I can't believe that it's just around the corner.  What a long road it has been!  But well worth every single hardship.  Remember that... it is SO worth it!!!  Your hard work pays off and you wonder why you never did it before.  Congrats to Cassie for the amazing 3.8 pound loss.  Have a great week, everyone! 

Note from Tammy:  Oh, happy day!  I'm finally in the 140's.... yay!  And not just hovering there at the edge... I am IN the 140's.  Man, I've been sitting in the lower 150's for so long.  This week, I had no appetite, and I took advantage of it.  I didn't feel like eating, so I didn't.  And I've got my emotions under control.  It's all happy in my world again!!  For now.  Awesome job, Laurie!  And Cassie, jump right back in.  This is expected on a birthday week. 

Note from Tammy:  Okay, I've made it through the storm!  For two weeks now, I've been relatively sane and happy and normal!  That's not to say that I will not have more down times, but right now, it's all good. 

These are the results for last Wednesday's weigh-in.. yes, lazy me keeps putting off updating.  And this Wednesday's weigh-in, coming up.... umm, never mind, I don't want to jinx myself!!!  I AM thinking positively, though. 

Love and hugs to you all!

Note from Tammy:  Squeaking by, yes I am! A 0.6 loss is FANTASTIC, considering I was a little naughty again.  I guess this is what it's like to maintain, but damn if I don't have 12 more to lose.  Aw, well.  It'll come around.  I've been kicking it up a notch on my exercise, and I definitely for-real-this-time plan to get back to calorie counting.  Tomorrow.  For-real-this-time.

I got to see Kelley, Kristie, and Jonathan (Kelley's son) again this week!  We met at the zoo on Tuesday, and had a fab time.  I have to say that those two ladies are as great in person as they are online!  They are full of positive energy... the kind of people that you WANT to be around, because their good vibes make you feel happy.  And I like how adventurous they are, too... it's inspirational!  I hope to see them again soon!!

Note from Tammy:  I'm am THRILLED that I did not gain!  I was naughty for half the week, and then picked myself up, and saved it.  Whew!  So far, so good this week.  I'm going to see a loss this time, I know it.  I am BEYOND proud of my Cassie, with that incredible loss!  And this is Laurie's first gain since in 9 weeks, and she's already over it -- forget the guilt.  I LOVE IT!!!  Watching these girls succeed, and hearing the resolve that they have warms my heart.  I know that they are going to finish this out.

I wanted to share with you all a picture from a few years back.  I had no idea I looked like this!  I remember feeling like that sweater was slimming.  I can't get over how wide I am from front to back, and we're not even seeing the full back part.  And my facial features look so small, because they are hidden by the extra weight.  Tiny eyes, tiny mouth, and well... the nose can never be tiny, haha.  And awww, I'm doing what I did best... EATING! 

The worst part is that I didn't love myself then.  Every day, I looked in the mirror and said, "You are so fat and ugly, Tammy".  I was not strong in myself.  It took me down, the extra weight.  I was broken down to nothing, just a shadow trying to survive.  I've said this before and I'll say it again... every single struggle, every bead of sweat, every time I felt deprived... SO WORTH IT!  It is a different life. 

No, not everything is perfect!  Losing weight does NOT solve all of life's problems.  In fact, I can tell you that it MAGNIFIES all of life's problems.  For me, everything is under a microscope.  I have to fix all that is wrong.  And I will!! 

Note from Tammy:  :-(  I sooo have to get my sh** together!  Ugh!!  Up and down, up and down.  Things are a mess right now for me.  Nothing's really wrong, but my head is all tangled.  I'm hanging in there with my weight by the skin of my teeth, and if I don't hurry up and get better, things won't be good!!  I'm hanging on to faith that it will come back around.  I'm proud of Laurie for losing every single week so far!  When I talk to her, I hear so much of what I went through at the beginning of my losses.  It's a confidence and a forgiveness of self and a low pressure kind of attitude that will get you there.  She has it!  The .2 losses that she and Cassie both had this week are awesome BECAUSE THEY ARE LOSSES!  Awesome job, Girls.

The last time I ran was the 5K that I ran with Kelley and Kristie in Austin.  They are such nice girls!!!! I loved meeting them and Jonathan (Kelley's son).  AND I get to see them again over Spring Break, because Kelley is heading this way.  Here is a pic of us just before the race:

I've still been keeping up with my body sculpting and personal training, though!  My trainer made me feel proud yesterday.  I was doing some core work, and she said, "Do you know how strong you are?  You are so strong, Tammy."  She told me that she gives me the hardest workout of anyone that she trains, because she knows I can handle it.  Talk about a boost in confidence when I REALLY needed it.  I love her so much!

Okay, for real, I'm going to go check up on all my ladies.  I'm sorry I've been such a wet blanket lately, I do miss you all!  Hugs!!

Note from Tammy:  Yay to no gains! Sorry for such a quick post... I'm packing for my weekend trip.  Also, I'm pre-packing for my trip next week.  I'm heading to San Diego on business... yay!  I've got tons to do.  I so want to break into the 140's next week, so I'm going to try to be good through all this traveling.  I'll be around to check on everyone soon.  It's been a bit hectic around these parts!  Love ya'll!